Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Mama Said...

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You know that old song "Mama said there'd be days like this (there'd be days like this my mama said)"? Well, I had one of those days recently. I couldn't really tell you exactly what caused it. It could have been a lot of things. My neck has been bothering me a lot lately, and I had a touch of a head ache. The weather had been gloomy and cold. The hurtful words from the lady at the park were still sitting heavily on me, a friend said something thoughtless that I know she didn't mean the way it sounded, and there was another phone call that left things intended but not said that really hurt. So I was just feeling low. 

The positive side of this was that I use to feel that way a lot. I battled with depression for years, and I never even realized that it went away... but obviously it did. I haven't felt that low in a long time, and the best way to classify it was depression. It wasn't stress, I'm use to stress. Stress doesn't make you feel the same way depression does. Depression zaps the life right out of you. It makes it so that all you want to do is lay down and do nothing. You don't want to be productive, you don't want to have to care about anything, you just want to be left alone. It's an awful feeling really. And it's intensified by the number of things that you know that you should be doing, but that you can't bring yourself to do...

When I finally dragged myself to my computer to think about doing something productive, I couldn't accomplish anything. I just sat and stared at the screen, wishing that I had some spiritual lesson that I could gleam from the crummy state that I was in. But nothing came. I tried bathing myself in the gospel, but it didn't seem to help. I tried counting my blessings, and praising God for all that He has done for me... still nothing. But you know the funniest thing happened. It seemed like the more I tried to dig myself out of the pit of depression, the deeper I seemed to get. So I stopped trying, and trusted that God would do it on His own... and He did. He's pretty amazing like that. After He had me feeling better through nothing that I could take credit for, He led me to Psalm 40. And I wanted to share it with you here:


I waited patiently for the LORD; 
   he turned to me and heard my cry. 

He lifted me out of the slimy pit, 

   out of the mud and mire; 
he set my feet on a rock 
   and gave me a firm place to stand. 

He put a new song in my mouth, 

   a hymn of praise to our God. 
Many will see and fear 
   and put their trust in the LORD.

Blessed is the man 
   who makes the LORD his trust, 
who does not look to the proud, 
   to those who turn aside to false gods.

Many, O LORD my God, 

   are the wonders you have done. 
The things you planned for us 
   no one can recount to you; 
were I to speak and tell of them, 
   they would be too many to declare.

Sacrifice and offering you did not desire, 
   but my ears you have pierced; 
burnt offerings and sin offerings 
   you did not require. 

Then I said, “Here I am, I have come— 

   it is written about me in the scroll.

I desire to do your will, O my God; 

   your law is within my heart.”

I proclaim righteousness in the great assembly; 
   I do not seal my lips, 
   as you know, O LORD. 

I do not hide your righteousness in my heart; 

   I speak of your faithfulness and salvation. 
I do not conceal your love and your truth 
   from the great assembly.

Do not withhold your mercy from me, O LORD; 
   may your love and your truth always protect me. 

For troubles without number surround me; 

   my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see. 
They are more than the hairs of my head, 
   and my heart fails within me.

Be pleased, O LORD, to save me; 
   O LORD, come quickly to help me. 

May all who seek to take my life 

   be put to shame and confusion; 
may all who desire my ruin 
   be turned back in disgrace. 

May those who say to me, “Aha! Aha!” 

   be appalled at their own shame. 

But may all who seek you 

   rejoice and be glad in you; 
may those who love your salvation always say, 
   “The LORD be exalted!”

Yet I am poor and needy; 
   may the Lord think of me. 
You are my help and my deliverer; 
   O my God, do not delay.







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15 comments:

  1. I am so glad He gave you that Word! :) He is amazing!

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    1. Me too, and He sure is! :) Thanks for stopping by.

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  2. God faithful.... He makes all things beautiful, especially when we cant see it... thanks for sharing and for the sweet visit to my site... God bless you and your family!

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    1. Thanks for hopping over, Schotzy :)

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  3. Love that verse! I imagine the mud and mire of a slimy pit, and this is the life I used to be before Christ. I can certainly see how coming out of depression would be coming out of a pit as well. I've struggled with this myself and when dawn breaks, it really is like being pulled out and having your feet set on sturdy ground.

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    1. It sure is! Thanks for stopping by, Alecia.

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  4. That's one of my favorite Psalms! I love seeing God do His work. Thanks so much for sharing & for stopping by my blog today.
    Michelle

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    1. Thank YOU for coming by, Michelle!

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  5. One of my favorite chapters in the book of Psamls, I even shared last week about verse 5.

    He is good indeed and He is our great comforter and encourager. Praying that all is well with you.

    Thank you for visiting my blog.

    Blessings!
    Jhunnelle

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    1. Thanks for stopping by Jhunnelle, and for your prayers.

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  6. Thank you for your post. It was so encouraging to me. I sometimes struggle with the same thing sometimes. God is so faithful to help us when we throw our hands up and put our burden on Him! This was such a great reminder for me!

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    1. I'm so glad, Megan! God is so good!

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  7. Thank you for your post over at my blog. Maybe this is what I am doing wrong - trying to get myself out of it. I am good at the "if only's" such as "if only i had never moved into this house" or "if only I was a better parent, cook, caregiver, wife, etc". That's gotten me exactly nowhere, LOL
    Thank you for this post.

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    1. I'm good at those too! Only, I say if only my kids were better, or if only I had someone to talk to. God is good though, and He gets us through!

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