Saturday, September 17, 2011

Philippians 2:14

I'm having a Philippians 2:14 kind of day. You know, one of those days where you have to keep reciting Philippians 2:14 in your head to remind you not to complain. I posted on Facebook a little bit ago that I was having one of 'those' days, and when a friend responded with a kind message I broke down in tears. It really is one of 'those' days. I know that I'm not suppose to complain, and I don't really think that venting is biblical, unless of course you are venting to God, and casting your cares on Him (1 Peter 5:7). But what is a girl to do on one of these days, where the smallest thing makes you break down?

I love my kids, I love being home with them all of the time, and I really don't want to trade it for the world, but I'm just overwhelmed! My writing career is taking off, but it's hard to concentrate with kids arguing over who gets to play with a certain block of clay! Part of me thinks that I should just set my career aside until the kids are older, but that means a drop in income, and at our current state, that might cost us supper ever other night. Another part of me thinks putting the children back into public school would give me the time that I need to get things done, but the very thought makes me sick to my stomach. So the last part of me is left thinking that there has to be a way to make this work! Which of course brings me to Matthew 19:26 and Philippians 4:13.

Sigh, and all of this is written to procrastinate because I'm having trouble getting my work done that is due today. So. I should go. Philippians 2:14.

1 comment:

  1. Sweetheart, I think this is why God gives us Godly girlfriends. Complaining to complain is not right at all (and I've had to remind myself of that verse a lot lately too, so please don't feel alone). But I think sometimes if you do it right, that your girlfriends can pray with you and encourage you, to refresh your spirit in God and allow God to move through them to bolster your guff'n'stuff so you can keep going in the path He wants. It is not always easy to do all that is required of us, but I think it's those times that we get closer to God. We know that our own strength or peace of mind is not enough and that we can only move forward in Him with Him putting his arm around our shoulders and His hand over our mouths.

    Praying for you!